Saturday, March 31, 2012

coeur de march







did a fast collage on my lunch break, using some magazines that didn't sell.


tomorrow i'll use my lunch to do some interpretive dancing in the galleries.
there is a difference between a li'l boogie on the sales floor and a semi-spontaneous spaz-out amongst priceless(?) works of art.
the attendants jump on you if you even pull out a pen, (pencils are okay) and i'm versed in museum ettiquette. no crawling across the floor, no roller skates, no singing.


there used to be this great summer event, on the summer solstice.
the museum was open for 24 hours, with bands, djs, and a silent dance party.
because some people got rowdy back in 2002, the event was canceled.
this is also sort of what went wrong with the annual redmoon hallowe'en parade in logan square.
maybe not so much what prevented looptopia from continuing.


small gallery openings don't do much for me, but i miss the big art spectacles.
they had more in the way of crowd participation.
pushed their agenda.




proof.



Friday, March 30, 2012

like a lady




h&m shorts set, velvet d'orsay heels by cole haan, hella fake chanel bag,
vintage kidskin gloves, vintage rhinestone brooches

noah came home while we were drawing and whipped out his instamax and some new kola filters



Wednesday, March 28, 2012

whopper



you don't understand how this makes me feel.

serious cognitive dissonance.

i basically want to bite her eye.

Sunday, March 25, 2012

punishment and reward




tomorrow shua and i will be getting together for a live drawing/styling session. the way it's been in the past is i would just grab whatever beckoned from the hanger, but this time i want more of a direction. there should be interesting poses and a little bit of narrative, as was the case with that photoshoot i did in michigan.


if i had the cash, one thing i would have blown it on was the fraulein book by ellen von unwerth. anyone who has ever looked at a fashion magazine -- or Rolling Stone even -- has seen her work. it's high-contrast, saturated cheesecake. adult women playing coquettes and masquerading like


eloise.

since i don't have the lighting, makeup expertise, or camera technique, my expectations can be low. i can focus on outfits, because that's the point, more or less. hot-curling my hair will be my one concession to a truly pin-up look. (i wish i had a team for glossy marcelled waves and greasy coal eyelids, but i am not a real model or a stylist, so.)

based on the way shua and i work/edit in post-production, the results will be staggered, but maybe after they are all done, i can put together a little triptych.

here, more EVW. i know that's what you really want.










Saturday, March 24, 2012

en passant


knocked out this portrait early in the a.m.
didn't sign it, i just realized.
putting shit on the internet feels weird, since people can just grab whatever images.
i mean, fine, there's no money to be made by it.
money has never been my motive.
which is sort of how i know i'm really privileged.


so, just another amateur painting of someone i don't talk to.
sometimes that is what remote viewer project is about.
a kind of meditation on things i can't grasp or see.


some quotes that crossed my mind while working:


“how do i know what i think until i see what i say?” -- e.m. forster. 


and


"to draw lips, the pencil has to kiss the paper." -- shua (my own friend said that? that shit is wise!)


to break it down, what i mean is there is a heavy concentration on the subject and an exploration of my own emotion. anything i paint or draw or write about or film is in some sense a self-portrait of my interior situation. sometimes my interior is really disappointing. sometimes the impulse is really good but the skills to execute it aren't there. there is serious envy when it comes to contemporary image-makers like james jean or christopher doyle. their grace and balance and conviction and scope of vision. i'm also envious of anyone that has oil paints and knows know to use them. (except i don't really care if you went to art school and learned how to technically paint -- that isn't as interesting to me, since i'm happy to meander along on my own. i don't feel like going to school for poetry improved my understanding of words/diction or ability to interpret.) 



o light, red light

O Light, Red Light
by Cathy Park Hong

Girls! Girls! Girls! Batted molas eyelashes at boned molish chap,
But lika Greco Frieze, him stood in cold puddle o red light,
Spite One Girl! Curdling she finga, ‘Come bwoy, Come, don’ G’won.’
Toto sum Girls! curdled dim fingas attim but he maki no choice.
Only browsed ‘till sighed ’nut’a day.’ Went back, spillim seeds
onto hotel carpet, lone, wit only zuzzing cable, a suite nocturne.
Ai fife, he warbled, Ai la lune triste nocturne.
‘E capered down to karaoke lounge to singsong, a sloshing chap,
At hotel, quaffing Singapore Slings wit pomegranate seeds.
Next day, ’E kem back to de Girls! ta fes de garnet light.
Fished outtim haisimap pinga, but brined bine choice
E sterilized, and de Girls! chortled _’G’won home, batty bwoy, g’won.’_
Him moist eyes be anime anemone, he g’won
back, pining Don Ho’s “Tiny Bubbles,” a blarny mon nocturne.
Him catcha “desertitis.” “The sensation of feeling deserted after facing too many choices.”
Infectim neurotic forest like SSRI pips: him pinga all chap.
So, ‘E turn to return to him hum-a-day life, to fes domicile’s wan light
dreamim o him progenies chortling attim wasted seeds.
Ai, wine o consciousness fermented frum brain’s wadder, what seeds
sprout in de desert? What yields? We labor por him joy. Neva we g’won.
Nary, we work ovatime, shaving de tourist’s cuticle ’til dead o light.
Crooning our macaroon troats de 99th nocturne,
But, you, non! Tourists kennot be slaked, dim troats be chap
Lika duck wit chokelace dat kennot feast on fish o choice
We offal da finest sampla plate bouquet o choice,
But desertitis cankas digestion, destertitis like intestatus, whateva you’ve see’d
Yea desire reined, saddled like apaloosa wearim chap.
G’won, g’won, g’won, g’won, g’won!
In him suit attire, He whom cannot be sated, snored nocturnes
In him town’s train station tru eve’s descending light.
Fraid o failure, fraid to fessim wife in halogen light,
De act o returning a requiem, neva a choice,
But dawn’s aubade caressim prickle cheek, singing away nocturne.
Doe banished, he can come back to him life, begin afresh, aseed,
De tourist’s privilege be dat he can return, always return, doe frum desert he g’won.
‘Wake up, ole chap, wake,’ a janitor clap in him ear ’til janitor hands all chap.
Eye-crust y feral mout, he wink out o nocturne to janitor’s flashlight.
A pitiable kinda chap but he habba choice ta gwon home, me covet dat choice.
When dim ideas seed in us, how do we’um return, when we can only g’won.

Friday, March 23, 2012

yearn // nacre

collage vs. acrylic


3.1 phillip lim shorts, h&m conscious sweater, deena + ozzy lucite oxfords


losing gracefully

Thursday, March 22, 2012

keep autism weird

awesome (true) story: i went on a 20 hour roadtrip with one of my best friends, to one of the most retarded and big music festivals in the country. (wait, is it the biggest?) SXSW overruns the otherwise chillaxed town of austin, TX with privileged, sloppy hipsters until it is a nasty blur of sweat, vom, and taco trucks. when i say i remained classy, you'll more or less have to trust me.

do i have to talk about what bands i saw? does anyone care what i think?

3/14 - Austin or Bust @ Mohawk
prada leather panel skirt. it got a workout.
(the best act at this Windish label showcase was Blood Orange. he's got good songs and guitar jams, but my favorite part was when he righteously cussed out the dudes in Zulu Winter, who tried to set up onstage WHILE he was performing. the nerve!)


 3/14 - Rusty Lazer's Bounce Party @ Volstead
as sarah says "south by south BESTIES"
(Juvenile ditched this event, even though he was headlining. DJ Mannie Fresh did his thing, but the real deal was the whole st. roch dance fam showing up to shake it fast. it was like old times! you should check out the other pics in the photobooth, because there is plenty of ludicrous action and titties.)

 3/16 - Windish Day Party @ Mohawk
post-domy. karen walker sunnies, rag&bone tank, gucci belt, current/elliott cords

whenever i do the photobooth, some douchbag wants to jump in with me. guh.
(dragonette was meh.)

3/18 - Chocolate Sunday @ Beauty Bar
kitty mask

vintage swimsuit. you should be pissed that you can't see my boots. whenever i try to tell eric that my footwear is an important part of the picture, he dismisses me.


the only time i was a bad friend on this trip can be blamed on the rough lodging conditions. i wasn't rugged enough to roll with the 30-or-more gang of stoners, tweakers, and punks that crashed on the floor next to me. i'm way too anxious about bathing and too sensitive to snores to be happy under such a roof. luckily for me, my friend william and his wife vanessa adopted me for the second half of the week, which meant i could skip the melatonin and earplugs, but also had to abandon eric.

here are the newlyweds i stayed with. they did this Constantly.

trying to remember other shows that were noteworthy... Akabane Vulgars, Buraka Som Sistema, Com Truise, Elephant Stone, Jenny Slate and Dean Fleischer-Camp. there were a lot of acts that i kept trying to see, but i wasn't traveling under my own steam, so i never saw diplo, grimes, caveman, lower dens, quantic, wild belle, mannequin men, (the last two are chicago friends' bands). basically, i did SXSWrong, and if i ever went again, i would pay real money and organize myself to see more music and dither around less. the only show i went to that involved a ticket was on a riverboat -- which someone else paid for -- and that was an extra lovely afternoon. it was still a lot of fun, in the spirit of laissez le bon temps roulez; watching whoever, eating fried avocados, daydrinking, thrifting, people-watching, and ...especially, SWIMMING at BARTON SPRINGS.

anyway, i definitely wore outfits that didn't involve that white prada skirt, but without photo documentation, i could be lying. here are more trip-related pictures:


cinderella carriages in memphis

you know that dance ostriches do when they want to kill you?




at least i documented somebody's outfits

beauty ballroom, dillon francis (mad decent lineup)

5th street bridge, bats on vacation



Wednesday, March 21, 2012

fashion pilates




this pose is hella harder than it looks. listen, holding any shape for 40 minutes or more -- it's no joke.
your foot is probably going to fall asleep, very least.




dolce vita booties, shipley and halmos wool skirt, h&m sweater



Sunday, March 18, 2012

element


the white collared button-down shirt is the building block of the western wardrobe, for any* gender.




blouse by "5 minutes....happiness," lilac stockings with scalloped garter,
aldo bow pumps, alexis bittar lucite heart locket


by shua

i was tempted to write a mini-history of the white shirt, but i checked and no, the ambition isn't there. however, in my closet, there are eight (8) white, collared, button-down shirts. one or two of them are from the mens' department. i love the androgynous aspect, and the crispness.


*yeah, i'm saying any gender. cis-, trans, third, hermaphrodites. wooo politics!

Saturday, March 17, 2012

the gray


gray wool origami dress by robert rodriguez, patent aubergine t-straps by boutique 9



Sunday, March 11, 2012

little teeth



zara full-length zipper dress, united nude pumps

bleak acres

forgot about this 'editorial' i shot and 'styled' myself back on valentine's day. i went up to my mom's farm to cuddle with my true sweetheart -- stripey (he came with that moniker). everything garment that went into my backpack was impractical, because i wanted to do this green-acres-inspired pictorial, even though i've never seen the show. vogue has riffed on it numerous times. and it's an easy juxtapostion -- tailored brights pop in a muddy, bleak atmosphere. there's a bit of a 60s spin, too.


our girl arrives on the farm. vintage dress, dkny l/s, rodarte x target cardigan, chelsea crew wingtips

surveying the property -- and livestock

escaping reality

exploring the household (my little boy makes a cameo)

vintage pendleton blazer, BR silk sweater, zara trousers

prepared to get muddy. H&M dress, erin fetherston x target blouse, vintage scarf

yep. my mom. with mimi, meadow, and ....third m-ewe.


notes:
none of this would have been possible without a self-timer, but i still didn't get the shots i wanted.
it was really cold. ice everywhere. low tolerance for that.
playing dress-up and doing self-portraits still gives me crazy, paralyzing, cognitive dissonance.
i am not always my own best stylist.
there was a lot more landscape i would have liked to utilize.
having a second model would have been so awesome, for interactions and drama.
the contemporary shot, in my everyday beanie and cardigan, is my favorite, due to the lighting.
props make any pose less awkward.
wide-angle lens is pretty much always better.