Wednesday, December 29, 2010

bird banquet




these are illustrations from a story i'm working on. i've never tried to tell a story before, since i'm better at describing a sensory experience than creating a plot and dialogue, but a friend got me inspired to give it a try. (i was trying to help him write his own "fictional narrative," but then i felt an urge to diverge; in my head i could see my character --a girl adrift at sea -- as clearly as if i were remembering a favorite painting, and i was loath to let her go.)

it isn't that i had an epiphany of how to tell her story, when i all i could do was fish around in my ignorance, asking myself how she had got into that position and what could she perceive. i still don't have a sense of her dialect and i haven't locked down the personalities of the people she'll meet. i'm not even sure how she will get rescued or effect her own salvation.

all i've got are memories of how salt air tastes, what it feels like to be in a little boat, heatstroke, hunger. dreams and fear. i did write down some plot points and even some notes that give a sense of era and temperament, but it's not even in proper sentence structure. (there are kids in grade school who would be less trepidatious about setting her in motion and giving her a voice!)

the two featured images are from a dream she has, while lost at sea. in it, she is seated at a long table, laden with glistening fruit and fat fish. there are gilded plates and bejeweled goblets brimming with wine. her dinner companions, however, are not ladies and gentlemen, but squawking, squabbling birds. bright-feathered and long-clawed and curve-beaked, they are merry but uncouth, and they slosh their drinks around her.

she is too soft-spoken to participate in the revelry, but her fantasy is not just a feast. in the midst of the rabble, a small bird alights at her side. he is modest, mild. he cocks his head at her and meets her with his little black eye. his gaze conveys a sense of affinity. his stillness and his small gesture calm her.



i really hope i stay on track with writing this story, or at least drawing it. i would like to know what happens to her and what she's about. i hope that blogging about it like this is a motivator, and not an act that disperses my enthusiasm.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

for you i would build a whole new universe



Love Poems



1

Do the flowers change as I touch your skin?
They are merely buttercups. No sign of death in them. They die
and you know by their death that it is no longer summer.
Baseball season. 
Actually
I don't remember ever touching your back when there were
flowers (buttercups and dandelions there) waiting to die.
The end of summer
The baseball season finished. The
Bumble-bee there cruising over a few poor flowers.
They have cut the ground from under us. The touch Of
your hands on my back. The Giants
Winning 93 games
Is as impossible
In spirit
As the grass we might walk on.



jack spicer is my favorite poet. usually i can articulate why i like something, or why i don't, but with his works, which were out of print for for so long, talking about them is like trying to draw underwater. in an advanced poetry workshop for which i wasn't really qualified, the professor gave us the heads of the town up to the aether and selected works by robert creeley. it was probably the best reading opportunity that came my way at columbia college.

heads of the town doesn't include love poems, but spicer frequently returns to orpheus, eurydice, dada themes, and images from cocteau films. his images are often spare, and he pushes the reader to build long skinny bridges between disparate concepts. he's into mortality and pop culture, natural images and puns. he's referential and romantic. he was big into burning his transcripts, instead of publishing them.


i like how, in this poem (the first of nine poems in a series) he lets the reader walk on insubstantial air.


the only poet living today that i would consider comparing to him is d.a. powell, another experimental, grew-up-on-greek, creative genius homosexual teaching in san francisco.

Monday, December 27, 2010

seven foxes for seven girls

this is a series i worked on while living in seattle. ink and cheap well paint on watercolor paper. number 7 is a quasi-portrait of my friend ilana. these were very soothing to make. it probably shows in the pastel palette and the gentle postures.

some of these were framed and put on the walls of our capitol hill apartment, and some were sent away to other friends, as gifts. i do not know where they are now. in storage, with most of my art supplies and books and music and important stuff...


 
 

is it self-indulgent and unfair to post old work? my next post will be something i drew just the other day.


i'm not really sure where this blog will go, but i want it to feature everything that keep me in thrall: poetry, illustration, music, philosophy, photography, fashion, cinema, and travel, etc. i hope to get some guest bloggers, like my friends kyra, rebecca, ilana, esther, devlin, and hedges. maybe lamon, my mom, and lane.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

portraits december 2009

based on facebook photographs

mostly watercolors, but also colored pencil, faber-castell pitt pens, white-out, sharpie marker, spray paint, and various chemical-change treatments such as heat and salt and melted wax. painted mostly on computer printer paper, but also staff paper, watercolor paper. the reverse of some pages have poetry from jack spicer, scenes form hamlet, or excerpts from zizek-on-lacan.

this project was a pleasure -- i find my friends to be a very reliable source of inspiration.
i tried to be aware of color-gendering; it seems that shades of green are neutral defaults.


aaron
adena

alex
amanda

andrew
anki

atyani
ashley

avery
becky

brenda
brian

callista
cassandra

charles
christine

conrad
cristina

curtis
dan

daniela
dani

dave
daveed

dave h
dawud

devlin
dorothea

duncan
eric

everett
gerard

holly
ilana

ilya
isaac

janet c
janet l

jeanine
jen

jerrell
joanna

jodie
jonathan

juliet
julio

justin
kaitlin

kate
kevin

kristiana
kyra

lamon
lane

laraie
lauren

leana
liam

mara
maria

matt
molly

natelege
nick

noah
otto

rachel
ray v

ray
reena

rob
sarah

sarah h
saumya

scott
seth

thomas
wayne
wes
yonina
zac